Struggling with the Truth

Hi,
I have always been deeply turned on by the idea of my young asian wife being with other men. However, lately I am finding that my submissive tendencies are becoming stronger. I find myself desperately day dreaming and jerking off about strong males, capable of utterly humiliating me, by taking my wife and destroying me permisterally thru physical use.

This has come to a head following the recent show on BBC 3 'Blood Sweat and Takeaways' it featured in the first episode a black nigerian male from London who was so agressive so another team member that it totally demeaned the team member and resulted in a physical assault.

Now all I can think about is this Black Man doing the same to me! Humiliating me in front of my wife and everyone I know before fucking her to pregnancy and physically a***ing me.

These feelings are so strong and scary yet even as I write this I am hard thinking about it.

Would love to talk to men in a similar situation and maybe meet. I am based in Dublin Ireland.

Sometimes its better to just give in to your thoughts and seek safe ways of bringing them to reality. Otherwise you will just be endlessly miserable...and besides, whos to say what you're feeling is wrong.
I often think its just the natural order of things

My wife is a sweet Thai Chinese girl who has no idea of the things I would only black men to do to her or to me.

A single black male could ruin my marriage and destroy me as a man instantly...

WIFEPIMP- While I don't consider myself a pussy, I will admit being intimidated by black men. It's easy to become humiliated and feel inferior when he has taken your wife sexually, you know, she prefers his lovemaking over yours.
I have been slapped around a bit by him in the past, and called a "bitch." But, I actually believe I had it coming by crossing over the line on something I had been jokingly saying. He just had enough I guess and I didn't real the signs. I also believe it has to do with him establishing the "pecking order." He's the big black "Cock." I don't know, but that's the way I see it.......

There's always the Pro-am porn biz.

Big Black Men with Big Black Dicks use fresh amateurs.

Everyone is tested and you even get paid.

That would make you a whore.