I was born a Cuck

A couple of months back I was posting alot and inbetween relationships, I had reinvolved myself via phone and e-mail with wome who had in the past been involved in female led situations with me in my life.

During this time I got involved with a beautiful woman named kelly, I had hinted at fantasies and recieved a very negative reaction, so I decided that I really wanted her and I had better just lay off.

After trial mentioning a bit to her and seeing her reaction I decided I had better cover my tracks, so I came in and started deleting my posts, but after talking as i had she managed to find some traces I missed on my computer and confronted me.

She broke up with me after finding this site and my remaining posts and others, swore myself off this fantasy and kind of moped for a few weeks and then she shows up at my house, she says after long talking that she would like to be with me but only if I swore of all adult material and devoted to her, I agreed

So for a little more than a month we are back together, and she is so hot, she is dressing up and we are going at it...

Then she springs it on me... she had taken some time to think and when not around she dug up all my writings on the computer and got my contacts numbers and e-mails for other women from my past

To make a long story short, she tells me one night when I get home from work and i'm going down on her... she asks me how much I like it and of course I tell her how much i love her, and the taste of her and... she informs me that all month I have been tasting her after she has been with her lover, that she was actually turned on by what she saw and had tried a Black man for the first time while we were split up and decided she really liked the idea of all this

It had been a long time, maybe 12 years since the last time I was in any kind of rl cuck situation, I don't know how to feel, when she told me I bacame really aroused but I am also ashamed and confused.

For the last 10 days I have been in a cuck relationship again, she is making me write this to tell everyone that i am a cuck, she wants me in ways to affirm it, say in a way out loud that i have been eating her after other men have been with her for a month or more now, admit that it turns me on, she says to help me cope with it.

I am kind of scared, could I have been born to this? last night was the first time she brought a lover to my home, he was a black guy, big, muscular and hung alot better than me and it drove me crazy listening to them.

She says that by opening her up to Black men I have done something for her she never imagined and that she wants to take this lifestyle all the way, she is very, very serious, I had decided to part ways with this fantasy and now she says she is ordering a CB, that the ultimate cuck and such forums drive her wild and she is making me write this, she says it's the first step in me acknowledging this as my future and she wants to completely have me under control, wants me to sign her on bank accounts and marry her in a "special" ceremony

Tonight she says I neeed to shave my legs and she is here with a strap on she bought. I guess by even writing this now I am submitting. I think i was born to be a Cuck, even when I try to escape it it comes raging back into my life.

He'd be a fool to back out now. Especially since he knows what a cuck he really is. I am battling the same type of torment, I have been in love with the same woman for 20 years, never had her sexually...yet she is the object of all my twisted cuck fantasies. Probably "because" I can't have her...I guess this alone has cuckolded me. Although, I feel I have been a cuck-type permisterality for the last 25 years beginning "before" I knew her. I probably just need to find a woman who will cuckold me, and also be with me as you are doing. If I were in Damian's shoes, I'd be as good to you as possible to keep you in my life - and let you have all the BBC you can stand. It really turns me on and I fantasize of almost nothing else. You are what we all dream of Kelly - keep up the good work. Damian should be proud to have you, you sound like the real deal! Cheers!

You're in for the next gay parade, I imagine ...

No one is surprised by this are they? Most saw it coming and I question.....oh, never mind what I question. Whether this (or she) is real or not let 'em have at it if it works for them. I don't particularly "buy" it but nor do I care.

Naw Vanilla it's real. I can be elaborate and am prone to exageration but mainly I stick with the truth.

I've been with women in the past into female led and had experience when younger where I guess you can only say I was cucked and it turned me on but for a long time I walked away.

I had been doing alot of soul searching between relationships and got myself fantasizing about a marriage lifestyle and etc that could be fun and stumred in here.

As it turns out Kelly knew, shes tall, my hieght, taller in heels and has that look, men have approached her with dom stuff and the friend that set us up had known about my fantasies ( a takesen night ) she had said she said nothing but really had set me up. Kelly told me the truth tonight, the whole finding out thing was fake to embarass me and play with me, she knew and our mutual friend set us up because she was interested in a guy with a sub fetish. Interracial she had fantasized alot about but cuck and etc was new and she really like the idea of it and really is infatuated with Black

And I am a bit tripped out because it turns me on and she wants to really do this lifestyle and i always fantasize but the last tiem I had a girl this serious I ran away from it, but honestly always remember her most of all the women I have been with.

There is nothing gay about it and I like offense play a bit but for me I just Love women, I love a woman who loves sex I love the voyeurism and I enjoy when she has the power to make me do anything she wishes, so turned on and desperate I give control of myself away, when I am with a woman who I can trust to be that far out of control with it just feels good. The intimacy after is unbelieveable sometimes and some women can really handle alot of sex alot more than me or almost any man can give alone and there is something about a woman when she is truely sated thats really awesome.

But as it shows. Alot of people just wouldn't or couldn't understand and I am afraid of getting my real life warped by it if not careful and have reservations but also daily am going in deeper.


P.S. Hi! I actually was the one who went deeper tonight
He Loved It!!!!! He looked beautiful looking at me with watery eyes telling me he loves me and begging me to go slower. It really arouses me to make a man so vulnerable, for me it makes a man almost human to see him that way.

K

Kelly, maybe Damian is only worried because of your level of dominance. He seems to fear losing something, it may be that he fears losing YOU once he's so submissive that you cut him out entirely and only allow the alpha males into your bed. I know that would scare me if I were in a relationship. I would want to share my lady for her ultimate sexual pleasure ONLY...and seeing/knowing her needs were fulfilled would simply thrill me. Especially if a BBC stretching her pussy out and making her feel like a woman was what she needed...I'd be her puppet for sure. But I would always want there to be times where she made me feel like a man, and made me feel secure that I'd always have a place in her life and her bed. I think this is ALL Damian needs...he's just afraid of losing you at some point if things continue as they are.

This whole week has been crazy, with one day as an exception her girlfriends and Black guys have been over.

Todays group is from the local nieghborhood and young, kelly has barely been out of the room,

I used to buy smoke from the kid next door he is 19, a specimin and a half

Her friends are in the living room with hisfriends mostly hanging out, but they have been at it all day.

They were out for about a half hour around an hour ago... completely surreal experience, for the last couple of weeks I have been cleaning, after people left, but this time she called me over, and these guys are young and the hooting was crazy. But not humiliating really, more like cheers

These guys after that spent the next hr or so in conversation with me, nothing bad, but they are all excited about her friends bring new girls over in the future, and forming a club for this lol

I have to admit, I am completely hot right now, no relief all day and I can hear them in the next room

Kelly is really tall, her sitting on couch next to this tall 6'5 kid and he is hung so well, he has claimed her as his own kind of all day and she just looked so hot, she had heels and i was abrefoot, both larger than me when they stood up

we are mostly here by the computer atm, except kelly and co... and everyone is buzzed and talking

Of 9 black males here between 18 and 22 only One has slept with a black girl, all of them have slept with white girls

Of five white girls, one has never slept with a white guy, 3 lost their virginity to Black guys all consider themselves at this point exclusive to black dating

Every guy here...we just did show and tell, is better endowed then me, one is shorter but much wider

all five girls say they decided black males were superior back in grade school from experiences in gym class and athletics

s guys have had a whit guy give them head before, one in juvenille hall one in jail

None of the men use birth control, all the girls use the pill, 2 girls say they would one day like black babies and one girl says she would get off on colaborating to get other white girls pregnant

all five girls say they see their parents sex lives as a major factor in going black

All agree that overall almost all women of hs or college age have tried Black from this generation

13 was the median age of them going black


None of the guys view aman going down on a Black man as Gay, they say it's just dominance like jail. every one agrees dl brothers aren't gay either mostly, it just feels powerful to get over on or be acknowledged that way by white people of either sex

.. one guy said after 100 years of telling white people to suck our dicks finally some of them are... lol, thought that was funny

2 girls here say they know there ladys have gone black behind their mans back

All of the girls have wandered into black nieghborhoods to find sex in the past

Interesting:

After some more talking, everyone, mostly college age agrees... this all stems from HS and is mostly recent.

They say and i agree white males mature several years later then black males, that white males are smarter but know nothing of sex or life until older and that whit males are taught to speak "Gay" Pc langauge to others which makes them look weak

everyone agrees, Black males had a mans erection years earlier and that dominance in sports too comes from the defeats on the playground, fist fights and sports where white males lose confidence when young and that white girls mature as fast as they do

The girls say the lack of attention to society is very big, that in school or life 30 year old black men would come for them with their big grown up dicks and white males wouldn't even look at them except out of the corner of an eye...

The Black guys also admit that White... looks softer to them, that they all have thought about or found some white guys femininely before i.e. having sex with them...

we all agree that alot of whit guys stop going to gym class during puberty because they don't wish to be in locker room with black guys and that there is sexual tension, not all white guys but there are always some, thin with the blond hair and colored eyes...

Kelly just said that if the education system doesn't stop interfering that half of white guys will be gay, the girls agree... they say EMO is the big thing that like all the white guys in the Hs here were emo and dressed soft and the girls liked them but sexually gangsta black was sexy and white emo culture and goth kids were not

White kids that act black are completely sexually unattractive to everyone LOL, black guys and white girls, retarded is the word, ... "nigga will never reproduce actin like that" was a quote

Kelly says politness is a huge turn off, that she wants to be taken and being asked for a kiss makes her sick

Kelly says and girls agree white males don't recover from embarasment and awkwardness and guilt in grade school anymore, that they are made to feel bad and that smart kids don't get special classes.

All the girls agree, that they have had teachers push Black males on them, in groups and seating and activities... some teachers seem to get off on the interaction and manipulate the classes

They also say there was almost no representation of a normal adult white male all through school, teacher were all divorcee women or minorities but white males were rare and those that did teach were pot heads mainly that didn't want to work

All the girls agree, black penis size is overall larger and color is more masculine and contrast is fetishing... BUT, the biggest turn off of white guys is they are too nice, Kelly said he just fucked my ass without asking, thats what i want, white guys wont even talk to girls any more when she was in college, they are afraid...alot of Black guys don't even care if they go to jail, they will practically **** them, they don't pay attention to age rules or have and ***** rules and they fuck them... and that's all culture not race

This is the best, maybe no one ever needs to post again lol, this guys sister comes over from next door and is listening to us for 15 minutes... and explodes.... As close as I can come to verbatim here:

You all a stupid bunch a niggas and crackers, niggas ain't gay niggas will fuck any damn thing, my fool brother don't even know the damn diffrence between a skinny white boy and big white girl, you niggas don't give a fuck bout no web site you just trippin on these white people and white people talk too damn much always makin up cuckolds brownie your dicks ain't so damn big and white boys ain't gay either they read the fuckin cosmo tryin to get laid to much and act up all sensitive like, why is there a whole website about white women fuckin niggas? what can these crackers talk about so much, niggas takin over... niggas takin over the liqour store couse moms gonna throw your ass outta the house you keep comein over here to play with the white woman why the hell don't yall just fuck, white boys ain't gettin laid cus they thinkin too god damn much just put your dick in like these dogs and shut the hell up cus my brother is no lover, this boy don't know cuckolds brownie how about nothin, you niggas learn how to treat a woman all of you, all this psych crap and science cuckolds brownie and race and niggas takin over the world without a damn bank account, this fool smokes weed and plays with action figures when he ain't playin gangsta and this guy likes jerkin off cus he's too lazy smokin weed to fuck, thats all that cuckolds brownie is, this white girl ain't bein Stretched by no Big black dick , cause if she was she would have been done after dinner and relaxing right now you niggas can't get that big black dick past my ass anyway, she just thinks it looks pretty slidin in casue white girls all materialistic like that always decorating cuckolds brownie, you niggas need to go the fuck home cus we can hear you all up the block and cuckolds brownie.

Her brother says after she leaves... low voice, "this is why there ain't no site about black women stealin white men away huh?"

Your near verbatim text translation of what she said may have poor grammar, and her speech may be a much less accepted version of the english language, BUT, she does have a point. Sounds to me like she's the only one there with her head on straight.

Well, that did slow it down and the next day we talked and she had him over again, seperately, alone.

The first day they spent together and after that I have been watching

I find myself addicted and compulsed it's real that the more involved you get the more submissive you feel, even a few weeks ago a cream pie was a Maybe maybe not on my list and now I wait for them and where I was nervous i have been looking forward to this daily


today was another step in deeper, I was watching them, and he got really into it his thrusting incredibly rhythmic and pulsing, a rhythm I have never came close to let alone would be able to duplicate in style and she was tearing at the bed and at him... b y far the best orgasm I have ever seen a woman have and when done he turned and she looked at me too. We had discussed if I would go down on him or not and I had awnsered unsure, but they both knew because he basically turned it to me when he was done and I did the deed on him for the first time today.


Kelly and I were talking later in the day and we both agreed we should give some serious thought as to how far we wish to take this ... and she is inclined for all the way... whatever that means... yikes... but also doesn't want me to get more hooked or feel more submissive if thats not what I want